I was thinking today about how quitting the alcohol was not as hard as I thought it was going to be. Which is not meant to diminish anyone’s struggle or anyone else’s journey in any way at all. But for me once I got through the first week or so it was pretty easy.

Now a lot of people when they stop drinking, find another addictive Habit to take up the slack. Whether it’s cigarettes or sugar or soda pop, there always seems to be a need to replace the alcohol with something else.

For me that would be justification. It would be a sign that I’m not strong enough. It would be easy for me to say well I’m not drinking anymore so I think I’d like a cigarette. But we stopped smoking too, quite a while ago. So it would be easier still to say I stop drinking therefore I want a cheesecake. Not a piece of cheesecake. You have to remember I really like cheesecake. I would replace a beer with a whole cheesecake.

But that still comes down to weakness. And when you think about it it comes down to letting a substance; a foreign, inanimate substance, control your life.

What kind of sense does that make? Really think about that. What kind of sense does it make that you would allow a substance to decide how you were going to live your life?

So that was a turning point for me. There are days where I crave sugar like you wouldn’t believe. Way more than alcohol. But sugar is a substance just like alcohol. I can eat a little bit of it when I feel like it, but not let it control my life.

And I certainly can’t use sugar as an addictive substitute for Booze. That’s counterintuitive. It’s counterproductive. And if anybody catches me doing it you can smash my face into a countertop.

That’s all for this Friday. Tomorrow is weigh-in day and I have High Hopes. I sure would like to see 214 tomorrow but I don’t know if that’s going to happen or not. I’m still stuck at that plateau where I just can’t bust through that 215 number. But I’m not going to quit and I’m going to keep working towards it. And I have a feeling that once I see 214 then 210 is going to come easy. And then 205.

Peace