You know I realized today that I’m kind of a poser. I’ve been talking about throwing away baggage and taking your ego out of the way and acting like a goddamn grown-up. But I have been hanging onto my Mountain Man beard for a year longer than I should have. Maybe not a year but for sure 6 months. I should have cut it off as soon as covid-19 started, but instead I started trimming in a little bit and taking some edges off and then people would tell me how awesome it looked and then I’d chicken out and not cut it again meanwhile I’m sweating my ass off. Can’t even sleep at night because I’m sweating on my neck because the beard was too long.

Why was I hanging on to it? Ego. That’s it. It had become part of my character. It had become part of my personality. And that’s not right. Some bullshit outward appearance thing like a beard? So I cut it off today. Trimmed it way back. Now, I’ll probably let it grow again because I do like having one in the winter time. But it’s going to be a hundred degrees tomorrow. What am I doing?

So much of all of this is ego. You don’t want to stop drinking because you don’t want to admit that you might have a problem, because of your ego. Because it would show some kind of a weakness if you admitted that things were bad.

You don’t want to work out anymore because you’re weak and slow and you have no stamina and your ego gets in the way and says you can’t do this. Don’t embarrass yourself. You don’t want to stick to a diet because that would mean that everything you were doing before was wrong and that is an ego slap.

As far as today goes, the 30 minute high intensity training workout that I am doing on the heavy bag absolutely kicked my ass. I didn’t realize until today how to truly difficult a real actual hardcore workout was. Everything that I’ve been doing at this point was pushing me but not like this. This was a huge push. I hated it but I loved it at the same time so I will keep doing it at least for the next few weeks.

Today is Wednesday that means weigh-in Day is coming up on Saturday. I will post statistics Etc.

And it’s now officially been one full week since we’ve had a drink. Have a great rest of your day. Thanks for checking in on the blog and thanks for all the likes and the new follows!

Peace